Thank You

Secret Garden - THANK YOU
(lyrics by Brendan Graham)

If I lived to be a thousand years,
If I ruled the word – it’s hemispheres,
I could not repay the love you brought my way,
So, I want to say it now
To thank you for each day you gave me.

Chorus:
Thank you for the Mondays,
Saturdays and Sundays,
Everyday, the whole year through;
Thank you for the fun days,
All those number-one days,
Battles-to-be-won days, too;
I just want to say it,
Thank you for each day with…you.

We have just one life to seize the day,
We only have what time there is to say…
‘n’do what we must do, express our gratitude,
So, I want to say it and sing it now to you.

[Chorus]

At the close of every day,
When I close my eyes to pray,
All I need to do, is just to think of you…
Then, all I need to say…is…

[Chorus]

Sebelum tahun ini akhirnya berakhir, aku ingin mengucapkan terima kasih kepada malaikat-malaikat pelindungku yang tanpa kusadari, selama ini selalu berada di sana dan melihatku. Terima kasih karena selalu menjagaku, terima kasih karena selalu menjadi tempat aku berkeluh kesah, terima kasih karena selalu mengajari aku menjadi orang yang lebih baik, terima kasih karena selalu memberi aku kekuatan untuk tidak menyerah.

Dan kepada satu malaikatku yang paling spesial, terima kasih untuk setiap hari yang kau ceriakan. Terima kasih untuk setiap hari kita berbagi. Terima kasih untuk setiap hari ... bersamamu.

I know this smile is here, because of you..

29.12.08 ~ via, thanks to you

Wishes

"I wish I can be slimmer"
"I wish she knew how I feel"
"I wish there will be no traffic jam"
"I wish it's not gonna rain today"

Does all that sounds familiar to you? Well, each of us has something that we wished for; every second, every minute and every hour of our lives. Big or small. Every wishes that we make are all in favor for a better, easier, and happier life.

Me myself too, made some wishes.. which I wanna share with you:
- Before I discover this marvellous L world, I kept on wishing I can find this special place where I belong, I kept on dreaming that someday I can meet people who is just like me. who is.. special.

- When I entered this world, I wish I can give back something to the community.. I wish I can help those people who have the same questions and confusions as much as I did. Those, who are looking for answers but can't find the way to it.

- When I finally have something that I can give, I wish that it can be helpful for everyone. I wish they can feel comfortable and happy. Thus, it will make me happy too.

- When I'm feeling hopeless and confused, I wish that I can get through the hard times and become a better person afterwards.

- When I fell in love with a girl, I wish she could just see what's inside of me, and she could've loved me the way that I loved her. I wish... she could be mine.

But things doesn't always happen exactly like what I'd wished for. Sometimes it's better, sometimes it's worse. No matter what, the wishes are always there.. giving me hope for a better life.

There's one story from a good friend of mine, which inspires me to write about "wishes":

It's about a 7 year old boy who found a magical necklace that can grant any wishes of the beholder. However, the wishes is like a time machine, it can only be done towards the future.

The first wish he made is, to become a teenager so that he can go anywhere and everywhere he wants without getting scold by his parents. *cring!*

He got it.. he is a free young man now. However, he is not satisfied. He wants to be an adult who has a stable job and making his own money. then again, *cring!* he got what he wished for. Now, he is a 30ish man and is married to a beautiful wife..

One day he was walking around the park and he sees a rich and successful man. He then thinks, "It's gonna be fun to be like that!" So, he made another wish. *cring!*

There, he became a 45 year old successful and rich man, and he had one grandchild. He enjoyed living in that life for a while. Until, he sees a much richer man who has many companies and doesn't even need to work anymore.

U guess? Yep! He made another wish to be a billionaire. *cring!*

In a blink of an eye, he became a 70 years old billionaire who owns many companies, a yacht and a private jet. He is happy at that time, and one day, he is travelling around the world in his yacht.

Suddenly, he feels so tired.. the body won't compromise. Most of his friends are old and dying. His parents and in-laws had passed away, so did his wife. His children are busy with their own lives. At that very moment, he realized he is alone and how lonely this world is. While, everything goes so fast, without him ever experiencing any ups and downs of his life. He got his wishes to easily and he took it for granted.

The moral of the story is: Life is a journey and it's not just a sudden loop from one dot to another.

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Well, every step in our life, every wishes we made, every hope that we have inside our heart. Everything! makes our life worthwhile. Life is a journey, and every journey isn't always gonna be flawless, sometimes we have to get through an ugly and winding road to get to our destination. Sometimes it even feels scary, but hey.. you gotta make it somehow, cos there's no turning back. Time will never wait.

Oh, and yeah.. wishes do sometimes come true. So, becareful what you wished for! ;)

04.12.08 ~ via, wishing all the best for all of you

BFF (Best Friends Forever)

"gua thanks God banget gua punya lu dan rosie"

Nyess.. Mendengar kata-kata itu, jantungku berhenti berdegup selama beberapa detik. Membuatku jadi teringat disaat kita pernah bertengkar keras untuk pertama kalinya. Disaat kusangka persahabatan kita akan berakhir, tetapi ternyata persahabatan kita semakin erat dan mantap. Berkali-kali mungkin ada batu kerikil yang menggoyangkan persahabatan kita. Tapi teman, sudah banyak yg kita lewati dan kamu masih disini untukku.

Sahabat, sudah berapa banyak teman yang kutemui selama ini.. berapa persahabatan yang kujalin.. dan berapa banyak dari mereka yang masih ada untukku sekarang?

Sahabat, kau yang memarahi aku disaat otakku sedang linglung dan kau yang selalu ada disana ketika aku sedang membutuhkan pundak untuk menyandar

Sahabat, kau yang selalu percaya padaku dan mendukungku untuk semua keputusan yang aku pilih dikala orang-orang lain meragukan aku

Sahabat, kau yang selalu mengingatkan aku agar tidak melewati garis itu dan yang selalu mengulurkan tanganmu untuk aku kembali setiap kali aku lusuh dan terluka karena melanggar peringatanmu

Hmm..

Aku, seorang Via.. sungguh sangat beruntung karena memiliki sahabat yang setia dan mereka sungguh luar biasa. 2 sahabat yang masih ada sampai sekarang dari kuliah. dan sahabat-sahabat baru di dunia "spesial" ku ini. dan kelihatannya akan datang sahabat-sahabat baru lagi. U know who u are.. :)

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To Miss Zhen,

Thanks a lot for sticking with me through all this time. You are always there for me, lending your warm hands and giving your trust in me. Nobody knows me better than u :) inside and out.

To Miss Tjong,

I still remember you once said, "duh, gua jadi takut sekarang kalo mo ngomong sama lu. takut salah omong" do you still remember? :) and now we're good as ever.

You are one of the first person I knew in this "special" world and you've given me a lot. You've been my guiding star and you never leave me stray. Thanks a lot

To Miss Sun,

Thanks for accompanying me late at night in the middle of crisis. I still remember, in that second time you were saying "Vi, kok gua ngerasa kayak deja vu ya?" hahaha.. it surely is.

It's been nice to know you. From the first time we chat, I always knew you're one good person to be with. Welcome to our circle of friends :)

To Miss Ong,

Thanks for always thinking of me, believing in me and caring for me all this time. You know I always wanted the best for you too and I always believe that you'll make the best for urself.

To Miss R,

It's been a while since our last chat. :) I also missed the time when we can chat on the phone for more than 4 hours talking from A-Z. You're always a good discussion partner, with your broad and great knowledge

To Miss E,

Thanks for everything. You've always been the first person to come and rescue in my hard times. Be there to pick me up and send me home every saturday we went for Yoga :) I always remembered the time we screamed hard and loud in the street. hahaha

To Miss V,

It's been sometime since we went out together, eh? I missed cooking instant noodle together in your house in the middle of the nite. Do u still remember? I also missed how my message window always popped out whenever something interesting happened to you.

To Miss S,

You are like a little sister to me. Thanks for always making me smile when I'm down.

To Miss MW,

There's nothing to say but thanks. You've been a great teacher to me even if I had to learn it the hard way. You once said that someday I will be thankful to you, and now that day has come. Thank you. :)

To Miss I,

Thanks for always being there for me, to listen to all my whine and cry. Thanks for giving me a warm shoulder to lean on whenever I feel tired and weak. Thanks and thanks and thanks again..

To Miss J (who complained 2 days ago cos her name wasn't here),

I accidentally knew you. But it has always been a pleasant to know you. Maybe someday I can hear you sing those mellow romantic songs while eating fried rice again hahaha.. Thanks for being my discussion partner and one that can make me feel relaxed.

To other misses,

You know i cannot mention your name one by one, but please do remember that I remembered all of you. Thanks for all the great memories you've given me. These memories changed my life better each and every day.

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I don't know when friendship starts and I also don't know when it will end. All I know is just to make the best of it. And when the time comes, let's just remember all the great memories. And be thankful, 'cos you are blessed, you are loved and someone out there cares for you.

26.09.08 ~ via, thank God I met all of you too

Kemarin

Setahun kemarin ..
Ada yang pergi dan ada yang datang

Setahun kemarin ..
Sebuah sms menghancurkan sebongkah hati ini

Setahun kemarin ..
Pikiran ini jungkir balik tak menentu

Setahun kemarin ..
Kesalahan terbesar di dalam 24 tahun hidupku

Setahun kemarin ..
Tak disangka, Engkau datang mengisi keheningan ini


Enam bulan kemarin ..
Kita saling menyakiti dan menghancurkan kepercayaan yang ada

Enam bulan kemarin ..
Kedamaian terusik dan segalanya pun berubah

Enam bulan kemarin ..
Hal lain terjadi. Lucutan senjata menyeruak di tengah keheningan

Enam bulan kemarin ..
Kita memenangkan perang itu, tapi semua pihak hancur dan terluka. Unrepairable damaged caused.

Enam bulan kemarin ..
Di kala hati ini terluka dan hangus, Engkau membubuhkan garam di atasnya

Enam bulan kemarin ..
Aku memilih diam


Tiga bulan kemarin ..
Fitnah dari mulut-mulut beracun itu menyebar demi mempertahankan ego dan gengsi mereka sendiri

Tiga bulan kemarin ..
Aku memilih diam. Biarlah racun itu tetap disana. Biarlah mereka merasa bangga dengan ego mereka sendiri. Aku diam.

Tiga bulan kemarin ..
Engkau masih menyalahkan aku. Tidakkah pernah kau berkaca pada cermin disana?

Tiga bulan kemarin ..
Segalanya menjadi beku dan tak berasa, hati ini biru dan mengeras

Tiga bulan kemarin ..
Hampa

Tiga bulan kemarin ..
...


Sekarang ..
Aku masih memilih diam

Sekarang ..
Aku memilih tenang

Sekarang ..
Aku mendapatkan kebahagiaanku. Terima kasih wahai engkau, malaikat dari surga.


19.09.08 ~ via, to be continued..

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"For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace."

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

When It's Over

Last night, the wind whispers to me.. "It's over, get up and look up to the sky. It's a brand new day tommorow". The quite sound of the night and the sound of the wind pacificate me into a sweet dream. It's calm and peaceful.

After a few months of hardship and losing sleep, I finally can get my good night sleep. One by one, I stumbled the stones of troubles. No more hatred, no more anger, no more resentments and the best of all, no more nuisance. It's calm and peaceful.

This morning, I look at the big sky. It's blue and clear. With the white clouds moving slowly from one side to another. Hmm, another brand new day.. light.. as if I had the wings to fly. It's calm and peaceful.

When it's over, you will learn that there's a price to pay for everything. There are things you sacrifice in order to gain another. And there will always be an end for every story. Nothing in this human world is eternal.

And what do you do? You close the old chapters in your book of life, and prepare to write a new chapter in this new blank page.

At the end of the day (before you close your eyes and stop breathing), you can read your "book of life" all over again. And... smile.

"Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end." - Seneca

15.04.08 ~ via, opening a new page

My Valentine

"Love is like a piece of art work, even the smallest bit can be so beautiful" - Stacie Cunningham

Kenal dengan istilah "everyday is valentine"? Aku juga salah satu orang yang merasa bahwa hari valentine itu sama seperti hari-hari lainnya. Tapi, tahun ini terasa berbeda. Tahun ini, aku merasakan artinya merayakan hari Valentine.

Hari ini adalah hari khusus dimana kita bisa menyampaikan rasa kasih kita terhadap orang2 yang kita sayangi, baik yang bersama kita sekarang ataupun yang sudah lama tidak kita jumpai tetapi tetap menempati posisi di dalam hati kita.

Hari ini adalah hari disaaat kita mengirimkan sms-sms sayang, menelepon orang-orang yang kita sayang, atau memberikan pelukan kepada orang2 terdekat kita.

Hari ini, aku mengingat mereka yang pernah aku sayangi. Mereka yang pernah hadir dan mewarnai hidupku. Mereka yang kini sudah terasa jauh, walaupun dekat di mata. Dan hari ini aku gunakan untuk memberitahu mereka bahwa, mereka pernah mengisi hati ini dan pernah dicintai dan disayangi oleh seorang Via, dan bahwa mereka masih diingat sampai sekarang.

Hari ini, aku ingin memperbaiki kesalahan yang pernah terjadi terhadap orang-orang yang aku sayangi. Kesalahan yang mengakibatkan kami menjadi jauh dan asing. Kesalahan yang tidak seharusnya terjadi.

Valentine, bukan hanya sekedar coklat atau hadiah-hadiah mahal yang kita berikan. Tapi, Valentine.. adalah saat bagi kita untuk mendekatkan diri, memaafkan, melupakan dan menyayangi.

To my family, my loved ones, my best friends, my friends and to you readers:
I wish you love on this Valentine's day! :)

A little story about Valentine:

Valentine, adalah nama seorang Santo yang hidup pada kerajaan Romawi sekitar Abad III Masehi. Pada saat itu, sang raja melarang para pemuda untuk menikah, karena menurutnya tentara yang masih belum bekeluarga akan lebih kuat dan tegar di medan peperangan daripada mereka yg sudah terikat dan terganggu oleh anggota keluarga yang ditinggal dirumah. Akan tetapi, Valentine melanggar peraturan itu dan menikahkan mereka secara sembunyi-sembunyi. Kemudian dia ditangkap dan dihukum gantung pada tanggal 14 Februari.

Konon ceritanya.. Selama ia di penjara, hampir setiap hari dia membuat kartu bergambar hati dengan ucapan singkat "I love you - from your Valentine". Dan kartu itu pun dikirimkan ke setiap orang yang dia sayangi. Semangat kasih sayang itu pun menular ke orang-orang yang berada di penjara itu. Mereka menempelkan kartu-kartu bergambar hati itu di selnya masing-masing. Dari sinilah istilah "your/my valentine" itu muncul.

Kemudian, karena semangat cinta kasihnya, dia diangkat menjadi Santo Valentine. Dan hari valentine itu pun terus diperingati sampai sekarang.

"Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile" -

Franklin P. Jones

14.02.07 ~ via, your Valentine

Love is..

Ada yang bertanya, apakah cinta itu?

Cinta adalah energi. Seperti layaknya energi, dia tidak bisa diciptakan atau dimusnahkan.. hanya mengalir dan berubah wujud. Seperti sebuah lirik lagu, cinta setinggi angkasa dan sedalam lautan.. tidak dapat diukur dan tidak absolute. Kadang energi itu bisa menjadi begitu kuat, dan kadang ia pun dapat menjadi lemah bahkan tidak terasa.

Cinta tidak terlekang oleh waktu, dan tidak ada masa kadaluarsa untuk cinta. Karena cinta bukanlah sebuah project yang diberi deadline. Energi cinta harus seimbang, memberi dan diberi dalam kadar yang pas. Terlalu banyak memberi akan menguras energi dan menjadi lelah. Terlalu banyak diberi pun akan membuat letih karena terlalu banyak energi yang harus ditampung.

Energi yang positive dari lingkungan sekitar merupakan pupuk bagi cinta itu sendiri. Orang yang hidup dikelilingi energi yang positive akan lebih menikmati cinta dibandingkan dengan orang yang hidup dikelilingi energi negative. Energi negative itu pelan2 dapat mematikan energi cinta. Dan energi cinta itu pun berubah bentuk menjadi kebencian, kemarahan, dendam, dll.

Jadi, hiduplah dengan energi positive dan cinta pun akan tumbuh. Hiduplah dengan energi negative, maka dendam pun akan tumbuh.

“Love is like energy. It can never be created nor destroyed...it is just always there. You just have to realize that fact” - Ian Philpot

15.11.07 ~ via, energized by love

Soulmates

Percayakah anda pada belahan jiwa, atau yang lebih kerennya disebut soulmate? Ada satu cerita dari seorang sahabat, katanya.. dulu manusia diciptakan berpasangan, dan tubuh mereka terlekat satu sama lainnya. Namun, suatu hari mereka meminta kepada Tuhan.. "Tuhan, kami ingin merasakan memiliki tubuh masing2 dan tidak ingin terlekat seperti ini". Karena kesungguhan mereka, permintaan itu pun dikabulkan. 1 jiwa untuk 1 tubuh. Akhirnya kini, manusia diciptakan seperti itu.. dan mereka pun harus terus mencari belahan jiwanya masing2.

Aku sendiri sering mengatakan kepada teman-temanku. Soulmate itu adalah: orang yang tepat pada waktu yang tepat. Karena, jika orang yang tepat itu datang pada saat yang tidak tepat (sudah terikat, belum bebas, atau terpisah jarak) maka cinta itu tak akan terjadi. Begitu juga sebaliknya, walaupun waktunya tepat, namun apabila orangnya tidak tepat. Tidak akan terjadi juga.

Beberapa orang, pada saat jatuh cinta akan berpikir "ah, dia pasti soulmate gue". Tapi, apa yang akan terjadi jika pada akhirnya nanti mereka putus? "ah, ternyata dia bukan soulmate gue". Buat aku, bukan begitu caranya menilai apakah si dia belahan jiwa kita. Penilaian itu baru akan terjadi di akhir cerita.. Selama cerita itu belum berakhir, maka tidak ada satu kesimpulan apapun yang dapat diambil.

"Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day." - Rainer Maria Rilke

13.11.2007 ~ via, just a thought